The silence in the household is deafening, though the tv is on and the clicking of my nails on the keyboard fill our small living room, the nervous silence between David and I is drowning out the noises of the world. There's truly nothing to say.
David and I had many errands to run today. We love driving around together because it's our time to talk about everything or listen to music and let the music talk. But today was different, we had the opportunity to do all our errands without the children (thanks to David's parents). Don't get me wrong, there was plenty of talking, but a HUGE elephant was present in the car and it wasn't easy to ignore. We were talking so much, we even reminisced about the days we used to spread out a blanket at the nearest park and to talk for hours about life, love and future plans. As we reminisced, all I could dwell on was, "never did we imagine THIS?" But who would imagine such horrible situations?
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I announced my blog officially today. The overwhelming response has been such a blessing. Even though David and our family have a FABULOUS support system (our parents/family especially), it's nice to know we will have the love, support, prayers and good thoughts from as many people as possible. To have support from people you don't even know is the most heart warming feeling to me. Since, I never felt like I was a "people person."
All the comments we received are so comforting. But let me unveil some things about myself. To everyone I may seem like a strong spiritual woman, but inside...this woman feels broken, shattered and unworthy of a God who would give His only son for someone like ME! I'm far from the perfect praying church wife. But I have come a LONG way from my rebellious party girl ways. BUT I still let my anger get the best of me, along with my "confrontational" tongue. I love a good drink with an umbrella, along with a menthol cigarette. Music is a huge outlet for me but some of the music on my playlist should be deleted. Most of all I will NEVER feel like a good enough friend, sister, daughter, mother and wife! I will not allow this blog to become false advertisement, I'm FAR from perfect! But God loves me and wants me to come to Him as I AM!! The closer I become to God the more HE (and only HE) will fix what needs fixing. I'm only human and no one understands more then Jesus!
"Looking for someone to love you for you? He loves YOU, let Him love you back!"
It's prayer time here and I need to get some rest since David and I our celebrating Valentine's day tomorrow afternoon! So, I may not be on to blog tomorrow night. If I do not get a chance to blog, PLEASE keep David in your prayers, he was called to be at the hospital
Monday at 10:30 AM and we will be there for about 5 hours (give or take)
PLEASE BE PRAYING!
Thank you in advance!
You and your family are and will be in my thoughts!
ReplyDeleteKeep looking up, Christa! Nahum 1:7 says, "The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble, and He knows them that trust in Him." We will be praying, for sure! May you feel His strong arms holding you through all these trials.
ReplyDeleteYou guys are in our thoughts!! If you need anything please let me know.
ReplyDeleteAs alway you are in my prayers and if there is anything we can do we our a phone call away
ReplyDeleteThe truth is all of us are a mess. The difference is you're not trying to hide that you're a REAL person, and not just playing Christian. I'm praying for David's appointment on Monday.
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